Was quite happy for my english orals tho... haha.. got Ms. Meyer!!! Haha... altho she had only taught me for a yr whn i was in sec 2... still maintained quite a gd relationship wif her... haha... so was elated tt i got her as my examiner... hope i m able to get gd grades ba... =)
Oh ya... she smsed me juz now... shant say much abt e content... but.. hope it will turn out fine ba...
Elvin.
Friday, April 20 / 11:50 PM
Depressed..
Hello. Hahas... yea i noe.. havent posted anything for quite some time now... lol. Reason partly bcause i was busy rushing all my homework and studying for e many tests i had for e past few days.. Haiz.. all dse cls tests are killing me.. >.<
Also.. havent got de mood to post anything too... haiz.. duno why.. feeling v down dse few days... altho at sch i always seem to be in a "hyper" mood... =.= but rly... dis is how i cheer myself up... (mayb u guys wont believe it ba... nvm..)
Many things haf happened last weekend... btwn me and her tt is. During sat.. i felt tt we were actually getting closer... haha... chat thru sms till lk 12+ midnight... i duno how she feels... bt... i m rly happy =)
However... on sunday... she sent me a sms tt rly broke my heart... i shant elaborate much on e sms ba... but... rly felt v depressed cause she keeps specifying tt we r juz frens... Keep asking myself... Am i just a normal fren to her? >.<
Haf been feeling v v sad over dis for e past few days... sometimes... honestly... i feel lk committing suicide... hope to get knocked down by a car or smthn lk tt... so tt i wont haf to suffer dis much over her... even hoped tt if i didnt die... i will b able to forget everything abt her whn i woke up...
Smsed her on monday... wrote a 10 pages long sms... told her abt my current feelings... thn told her tt mayb we shld give both of us a short break ba... cause... i rly nid time to recover... nid time to turn back into e cheerful me again...
This is bcause... i rly dun wish to be always smsing her wif a dpressed kind of tone... >.<
So.. ya.. tink tt we will only cont to sms aft e exams ba...
Elvin.
Tuesday, April 10 / 6:54 PM
Elvin.
Sunday, April 8 / 10:54 AM
7 April 2007- the day i actually professed to her.
Lol.. finally got my answer yestd le. Honestly... i am not sure if it was a 'yes' or 'no'.. cause she didnt make it v specific. lol.. but, i am happy... i really am. Bcause.. i feel tt i might actually haf a chance.. lol... mayb it is juz my own wishful thinking.. haha. But... at least i haf told her abt my feelings towards her... so... ya... lets c how things go ba.=)
But for now... we will probably remain as gd frens... lol. 但是,我还是会等她的. Hope she can stay happy always!
Okie... dats abt it for dis topic... lol. Dun wanna say too much le. Haha.. mm... wad shld i write abt... OH ya... yestd was a memorable day for me (yes.. professing to her is also part of e reason..), but... another reason is tt yestd was my last performance in BPCO. Haha... honestly.. it feels rly sad to b leaving CO le.. but i guess... all gd things muz eventually cum to an end huh? lol >.<
Yestd aft CO... I went out to e movies wif hz, kd, yh, ry and hy. Actually we wanted to watch "Mr Bean's holiday" de... but in e end... we ended up watching "Meet the robinsons"... bcause e tickets for "Mr Bean's holiday" were running out... and also... e movie had already started for like... erm... 20mins? lol.
Mm... i guessed i will end dis post here ba... cause haf to go finish up chem hw... thn study for chem and geo test... haiz... so sian.. =x
Tata.
Elvin.
Thursday, April 5 / 7:42 PM
HELLO.
lol... yea i noe... havent been posting anything for a long time le... haha... v sry abt tt... cause was rly busy dse few days.. mm... i tink dis gonna b a long post... so... b prepared to be bored... lols. >.<
Okie.. let me start off with how SYF went... well... juz as i have expected... we got a SILVER... i believe many of us were kinda of disappointed tt we didnt get gold... and honestly... i feel kinda of sad too... (altho i dun rly like to admit dis..) However... dis is DEFINITELY not the end!!! Continue to jiayou ba everyone!!! I will b back 2 yrs from now to see u, my juniors... getting gold in SYF 2009... hahas... 加油吧!=D
Guess dats abt it for e syf bit... mm... haf been reminiscing abt e past 3 yrs being a CO member... i must say tt i m rly rly v sad to b leaving CO soon... it feels kinda weird tho... b4 SYF i was actually looking forward to dis sat... when i can finally step down and leave CO... but... upon seeing how united we are during e syf... I... I... I rly feel v sad to be leaving CO so soon...
lol... yestd morning i went to e mp5 and mp6 (our CO practice room) and spent a few minutes dere... wanting to spend a few final moments dere... Looking at the few timpani's tt we haf... i suddenly recall e time whn i was in sec1... i cldnt even help move e timpani lo... but.. now being e most senior le... I often haf to volunteer to help move them... haha... time rly flies le.. >.<
Anw... i had a physics test aft sch today... OMG! tt test was pure sick la... it was so damn tough la... i dun even noe how to do most of the questions lo... almost everything is "tikam-tikam" de... haiz... die le la... i hope i dun get a single-digit for tt test lo... haiz... hope i m not tt suay... lols.
Dis saturday... will b quite a big day of my life ba.. i guess... hahas... finally going to profess to her le... altho i duno if i shld mah... cause she got a lot of hw to do and many tests to study for nxt wk... so... i scared i will affect her studies... lol. But... shall c how things go ba... hahas.
Tata!
Elvin.